It Started as One...of...Those...Days...

I was pretty excited about today. I've been attending ClearView for a few months now. And so thankful that God led me here. I think one of the biggest adjustments I had as I visited so many churches was that I so missed being plugged into a Worship Ministry where I was connected with people who had the same passion I did in worship and leading others to the Throne. Also, I've been traveling the past couple weeks, so i was looking forward to being back with these peeps.

Woke up this morning. Noticed the sun just starting to come through the window. Alarm hasn't gone off yet but the sun is hinting that the alarm will be going off soon. Glance at the clock. What?!?! 20 mins past the time I was supposed to get up. Argh. Need to make up some time. Curly hair and pulled up it is.

Outfit chosen and ironed the night before. Made up about 12-15 mins of the 20 mins that I overslept. Shouldn't be too late for praise team sound check. Walking out the door with protein shake in hand when a thought passes through my mind. Wait. Didn't someone say something at praise team rehearsal about coordinating outfits so we didn't clash. Oh crud. Black bottom/solid color top. I glance down and roll my eyes as I of course have the busiest, most colorful shirt I own on. Really, Requelle? Back in the house. There goes some of the time I made up. Argh. Lord, please let me have something that is ironed that is solid. I did, thank the Lord.

Headed out the door. In the car - check. Seatbelt - check. Worship music for the 35 min drive - check. Car on - check. Back the car up - check. What's that weird noise? Something caught under my car? It'll work itself out. Got.to.go. Out of the driveway - check. Shimmying steering wheel - check. Argh. Open door and look back as my brain remembers that I had to stop and put air in the back driver's side tire on Friday on my way home from work. And didn't go anywhere on Saturday, so no idea. Flat rear tire - check. I had gone all of 15 feet at this point. So I back up and pull back into the driveway. Starting to panic a little as I have no idea how to contact anybody to tell them I have a flat and I have no idea what time I'll be getting there as I'll need to call Kia's 24-hr Roadside service and who knows how long THAT might take.

Then God shows out. Just as I'm getting out of the car, my neighbor who already deserves the "Best Neighbor Ever" award for being, well, the best neighbor ever, walks out of his house to walk his dog. He normally doesn't walk her until after 9am. But come to find out, she woke up early and was antsy to walk early this morning. Lord, thank You for using that dog. The Best Neighbor Ever changed the tire in 10 mins. Seriously, 10 mins. It would have taken me 10 mins just to figure out where to begin.

Had a chance to explain to him that he was an answer to a prayer my heart prayed before my mind had even begun to think about what I needed to do. As I told him that just as he was walking out of his house, I had literally just thought, forget it, I'm going back to bed. So him being willing to change the flat was God providing exactly what I needed when it was needed. Thank You Lord for giving me an opportunity to witness of Your glory. May Your seed take root in this man's life.

And for those inquiring minds who are wanting to know . . . yes, I did make it in time to be able to worship with my new worship peeps.

6 Weeks Post-op

Sorry, it has been so long. I didn't mean to be gone this long. Life has just been busy. But I like it that way. Been awhile since life has felt busy and full. I've missed it, to be honest. But it's not so much that life is busy and full. It's me. A sweet friend mentioned it to me just yesterday . . . that it was good "to see me so content." I haven't been that in a while. Really have let life get in the way. But as I've been focusing on getting healthy, it has caused me, for the first time in my life really, to focus on me and what God is wanting to do in me. As those of you who love me know, I don't often do things for myself. I'd rather focus my energy on others. It's a sweet spot for me. I enjoy doing that. But there have been times when this has been an escape for me. If I'm focused on you, doing things for you, then I don't have to focus on me or my own stuff. That's a pretty huge realization for me. But in order to get healthy like I need to be, I have had to become comfortable in my own skin and be okay with focusing on myself without mentally going where I think I'm becoming self-absorbed or something. That for some reason has been/is a struggle for me. I'm making strides. God is breaking that stronghold. It's all in my mind. It's not that I can be the servant that God has made me to be. I just have to keep the motive in perspective. That's where the battle in my mind begins.

Well, today, marks another three weeks on this journey. I had a follow up with the dr again. Well one of his nurses. Found out that I don't necessarily meet with Dr. Morton every time unless I request him to be there. It was a good visit. She hit me with another 1.1 ccs of saline. And we talked through some questions I had. Also weighed to see how my progress was. I wasn't sure what their scale would say because the last visit wasn't as much as my home scale was saying. But this time their scale also showed I've lost more since my last visit than my home scale showed. I apparantly need to get a new one. I mean, it's only 14 years old :~) So according to the dr scale, I've officially lost . . .



I'm so stoked! In eight weeks (including pre-op diet time and post-op), I'm pretty pleased with that. There hasn't been one day when I've regretted this decision or questioned why God would choose this road. I can't even begin to express my gratitude. There's that little part in my head that is still "waiting for the shoe to drop" and something go horribly wrong. There's a line in the sand that I've never been able to get past. I'm still not there. But I keep taking that thought captive and covering it in the promise that God gave me back in February . . . that I will be like a spring of water, whose water will not fail. So I will not give in to those thoughts. He is ordering my steps and allowing freedom to reign.